when you've came to the realisation that you will always be your fathers daugher. he accepts me as a trans man, but he still calls me his little girl, and now he's dying. i will die his daugher. I dont think anyone understands my current emotions, i barely understand them myself. its just like a pit. like ive lost something, something that could've been. because as soon as he shows back up in my life he goes and dies. when I was finally getting to know him.